Time Traveler

How come I can not see the lies on your painted face?

I thought there was no secrets between you and me.

Whatever happened to the candle stick burning so brightly?

I know I’ve awakened you from you’re harmless day sleeping.

But now I hear footsteps in your eyes.

Then you are speaking to me and I can not hear what it is that you are saying to me.

I see only lines going up and down, of what is the sound that is coming out of your mouth.

You’re freedom escapes me like a mild night tiger.

My eyes escape your hearts desire.

Take me back to 1923.

Then when I was yours,and yours was me.

We sat and drink milkshakes for 20 cents.

You promised you’d buy me a big house with a tall white fence.

So I fast forward to 2020 where the future beholds a colorful thing.

These crazy lights are too much for me, so I go back to my least favorite time , year 2013.

Where I’m old and soon dieing; where death is all around me.

Twenty years ago is when you died, but however I didn’t cry.

On the awakening on you’re face was so pale and you slept peacefully in your crate.

I yawned that night and remembered your face the time we met.

We were so young and now destined for heaven or hell.

 

Hanging By A Thread

I’m hanging by a thread
The rope is breaking
The time is ticking
My fingertips are slipping
And the pain I’m in, its running through my veins
You don’t listen to a word I say and
The walls are closing in
It’s tough to keep my feet on the floor
My heart is reaching and
I can’t stand it.
My thoughts are being swirled around in the washing machine,
Like a whirl pool I can’t fight
What’s left of my heart is all I have to stay strong
Each minute the pain is growing stronger and stronger
The rain and thunderstorms are like the things I’m fighting through, just to make myself last
My eyelids are shutting and
My barin’s become dizzy
The colors they swirl around in my heart
Then I’m lying there and I’m breaking away
Crumbling like a chocolate chip cookies, that
Was dunked into milk too long.
I’m slipping away at the seams and
I’ve become something I’m not

Earth Angel

Thinking we all know the classic tone, the song dances along my bairn.

Only soon to make myself become numb

“Earth angel , earth angel will you be mine..?”

He sings to me

 

I didn’t know what to say

I just smiled

As we slow dance in the dimness of his kitchen 

The song turned up so loud 

We didn’t care 

“Earth angel, earth angel will you be mine..?”

He sings to me the second time 

For some unknown reason i nodded yes n kissed him 

He already had me 

I was already his before that 

But in that moment 

Was he perfect moment 

It was the moment i knew he was mind 

And were going to last a lifetime 

 

Earth Angel

Thinking we all know the classic tone, the song dances along my bairn.

Only soon to make myself become numb

“Earth angel , earth angel will you be mine..?”

He sings to me

 

I didn’t know what to say

I just smiled

As we slow dance in the dimness of his kitchen 

The song turned up so loud 

We didn’t care 

“Earth angel, earth angel will you be mine..?”

He sings to me the second time 

For some unknown reason i nodded yes n kissed him 

He already had me 

I was already his before that 

But in that moment 

Was he perfect moment 

It was the moment i knew he was mind 

And were going to last a lifetime 

 

Your eyes I don’t the color
I can’t read you mind and 
I don’t know your every move 
Don’t need to know any of that to know that I’ve got a crush on you 
Really try not to think about ya 
How can I not when day dreaming is my specialty?
I’ve open up my book of words 
Now will I play my cards 
Or will I get tongue tie 
I’ll just end up hiding behind hands 
Whenever my face goes red 
Soon to match my hair 
I might just lose my mind 
I think I really like you

Sleep fills my mind 
London come tumbling down 
Laying down in the backseat
This is not what I’m used to 
Voices leave my mind
The pavement is my friend 
This is now my home 
The city never sleeps 
And that makes two 
But I keep moving alone 
I keep picking up the pieces 
But there’s always something on mind 
Its you 
It may be cold but the thought of you 
Keeps me warm

Taken Me Away

Now that I have my fearlessness back 
Not standing alone 
You carry me away from there 
Filling my heart up all the time 
Not sad anymore 
Make me feel like I can do anything 
As long as I’m with you
Feeling safe in your arms 
Being impossible to hide a smile around you 
Always happy near you but
When your far away I miss you too much 
Love you

So I’m thinking bout posting my journal online? does anyone have a comment for that?

Paper Fire

Burning.

Burning a hole through my heart.

We decided where to part.

You pushed me down a wishing well.

Now i know you’re somebody else.

I can’t stand the pain.

you’re making the blood drip down my veins.

I shut my eyes in hopes of a new surprise.

In my heart all there is are crys.

You blame me on this.

Now your all pissed.

You seem to forget.

I know I’m gonna regret.

Don’t remind me.

I don’t want to remember a thing.

You pushed me down a wishing well and I’m still falling.

You used me to make my heart beat only for your sense of enjoyment.

Now it bleeds.

Don’t mind going on your way.

Cause it was cold hearted enough for you to say .

Our chatting is done.

I’m sick of your games.

You think your so cool , but really your lame.

You could blame you, your a bunch of crap.

I’m going to be independent now.

No, I don’t need to show you how.

 

No More Hate

I’m falling down a black hole river.

I can’t seem to find my way.

I don’t know where I am going, but I guess it doesn’t matter.

I’ve been tired,but lately I can’t find the hours of father time.

My eyes, as they are dripping with bloody tears.

My heart doesn’t listen to how many stitches it already has.

My legs and arms ,as the scabs start to come back.

The words, they’ve already begun.

They have haunted me since day one.

The days they drag on me like a dugger without a joint.

With pain running through my eyes and veins, I can’t really see what seems to matter.

The things I pop into me, their strength runs straight to my bairn.

One by one their colors excite me.

Two by two their thrills start to drill me.

By the time i get to three the scissors start to snip me.

Then I start to count the lines and dashes.

Two arms and two legs with 16 lines and dashes.

One the left leg 9 lines and dashes makeup the word “die”.

So when i’m done looking at the dripping lines.

I grab the rope and to make the letter “o” with a line hanging down from the ceiling.

I step on the stool as I write my goodbye letter.

“ I love you mom and dad. I can’t take the teasing anymore. so i’m pleasing you. I’m just saying good bye. I love you…”